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Mar 21Liked by alice maz

thanks for writing this- a good reminder at the right time.

I spent a good chunk of the last few years in academia, almost certainly too long. first it was fun, and there were always some good bits, but being surrounded by systems that are pointless- where everyone knows they're pointless, but does them anyway- rots your soul. it can become the way things are for a chunk of your brain, before you realize it.

it's odd- that sense of agency, that internal locus of control, is incredibly powerful, but also so fragile. things can erode it or damage it very directly. something you (or at least I) have to maintain, and cultivate, and fight entropy for.

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Very cool and awesome post šŸ‘

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the ending is a bit abrupt? "the longest lever you can..."?

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This essay really stuck with me and I've come back to it a few different times. Starting reading a Steve Jobs biography now on the back of the quote you included.

Would you still recommend reading stoicism? I've always found it interesting, but am put off by the association with toxic masculinity

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Shallow notions of reality guiding shit motions within society. I hope you find some ppl with whom you can bond soon...

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This speaks to me deeply. Thanks Alice for putting thoughts like these out there

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Cool article! You really gotta be agencymaxxing.

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